{"id":2255,"date":"2022-03-08T06:30:00","date_gmt":"2022-03-08T04:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sitotusiiubirea.armonios.ro\/?p=2255"},"modified":"2022-03-08T08:53:49","modified_gmt":"2022-03-08T06:53:49","slug":"declaratie-de-dragoste","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sitotusiiubirea.armonios.ro\/?p=2255","title":{"rendered":"Declara\u021bie de dragoste"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Mai \u021bi minte cum ne jucam c\u00e2nd eram mici? C\u0103 era z\u0103pad\u0103, frunze, ori chiar castane, pentru noi era indiferent at\u00e2ta timp c\u00e2t eram \u00eempreun\u0103. Nu \u0219tiam prea bine nici ce-s alea nume, dar \u0219tiam s\u0103 ne adun\u0103m ini\u021bialele ca s\u0103 ne dea o singur\u0103 inim\u0103. \u0218i le adunam mereu. C\u0103 o f\u0103ceam pe copaci, c\u0103 o f\u0103ceam pe asfalt, ori umpleam oracole \u00eentregi, important era s\u0103 exprim\u0103m ceea ce aveam \u00een suflet. C\u0103ci aveam multe \u00een el, de\u0219i abia aveam suficiente ini\u021biale, dar\u0103mite cuvinte ca s\u0103 le exprim\u0103m. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Apoi am crescut \u0219i au ap\u0103rut \u00eencet flutura\u0219ii. Au ap\u0103rut at\u00eet de subtil \u0219i pe nea\u0219teptate de parc\u0103 ar fi ie\u0219it din caietele de desen \u0219i s-ar fi instalat direct \u00een stomac. La \u0219coal\u0103 ne \u00eenv\u0103\u021bau c\u0103 fluturii ias\u0103 din omizi, dar eu n-am v\u0103zut niciuna. Te f\u0103ceau s\u0103 te \u00eendoie\u0219ti c\u0103-i ai, dar senza\u021bia era inconfundabil\u0103. Interesant era c\u0103 zburau doar c\u00e2nd te \u00eent\u00e2lneam. Uneori era suficient s\u0103 te v\u0103d, iar alteori \u00eei sim\u021beam \u0219i c\u00e2nd m\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam la tine. Cur\u00e2nd au fost at\u00e2t de mul\u021bi c\u0103 nu mai conta nici dac\u0103 erai \u00een mintea mea, c\u0103ci aveau ei grij\u0103 s\u0103 te instaleze \u00eenapoi. Apoi, cu timpul, au devenit a\u0219a de numero\u0219i c\u0103 via\u021ba f\u0103r\u0103 ei mi se p\u0103rea de neconceput. \u0218i cum existen\u021ba lor era legat\u0103 de a ta, ai devenit pentru mine mai important\u0103 dec\u00e2t aerul. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\"\"La \u00eenceput am \u00eencercat s\u0103 te fac s\u0103 \u00een\u021belegi asta prin bile\u021bele, dar \u00een scurt timp mi-am dat seama c\u0103 trebuia s\u0103-\u021bi \u0219i spun cine tot \u021bi le trimite pe ascuns, c\u0103 altfel riscam s\u0103 te sup\u0103r. Acela a fost momentul c\u00e2nd flutura\u0219ii s-au \u00een\u0103l\u021bat din stomac \u0219i mi-au umplut inima cu flori. Ce era s\u0103 fac?!? Evident c\u0103 \u021bi-am trimis \u0219i \u021bie c\u00e2teva! Ghinionul meu a fost c\u0103 le-am trimis tot f\u0103r\u0103 not\u0103 explicativ\u0103. Foarte probabil nu \u0219tiam s\u0103-mi scriu propriul nume \u0219i doar ini\u021bialele credeam c\u0103 n-ar fi fost suficiente. Norocul meu c\u0103 ai fost destul de de\u0219teapt\u0103 ca s\u0103 m\u0103 urm\u0103re\u0219ti \u0219i s\u0103 deduci logic c\u0103 erau mari \u0219anse ca eu s\u0103 fiu vinovatul. C\u00e2nd m-ai confruntat cu realitatea \u0219i am fost incapabil s\u0103 articulez vreun cuv\u00e2nt ai renun\u021bat probabil s\u0103 mai cau\u021bi un r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Am renun\u021bat \u0219i eu. M-am g\u00e2ndit c\u0103 oricum vine petrecerea de incheiere \u0219i-\u021bi voi spune atunci, nu doar un cuv\u00e2nt, ci mai multe. Ba chiar \u00ee\u021bi voi spune \u0219i cele dou\u0103 cuvinte magice. Petrecerea a venit \u0219i te-am invitat la un dans cu inten\u021bia de a-\u021bi spune totul. A trecut dansul \u0219i eu nimic. Apoi a trecut \u0219i al 12-lea \u0219i tot nimic. Nu mai \u0219tiu ce-a fost mai groaznic atunci, faptul c\u0103 nu puteam s\u0103-\u021bi spun nici un cuvin\u021bel sau faptul c\u0103 oricare dintre cei prezen\u021bi \u0219tia?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eram t\u00e2n\u0103r \u0219i mai prostu\u021b pe vremea aia (nu c\u0103 a\u0219 fi azi prea str\u0103lucit). <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oricum, te-am re\u00eent\u00e2lnit dup\u0103 2 ani, c\u00e2nd brusc m-am trezit. Am dormit p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci? Nu. Dar nici nu m\u0103 n\u0103scusem \u00een acea zi, de\u0219i a\u0219 fi putut jura c\u0103 eram un alt om. \u0218i tu erai altfel. Aveai alt chip str\u0103lucitor, alt p\u0103r minunat \u0219i chiar alt nume, dar erai f\u0103r\u0103 \u00eendoial\u0103 TU. Eu n-aveam nimic nou, dar \u00een mod paradoxal m\u0103 sim\u021beam altfel. Am ajuns chiar s\u0103-mi plac\u0103 tot ce f\u0103ceai \u0219i tu, absolut tot, at\u00e2ta timp c\u00e2t m\u0103 l\u0103sai s\u0103 fac \u0219i eu ceva \u00een preajma ta. \u0218i m-ai l\u0103sat. Chiar ne-am plimbat peste tot \u00eempreun\u0103, iar \u00een unele locuri chiar de mai multe ori la r\u00e2nd. Aveam at\u00e2tea de povestit, asemeni unor amici care s-au rev\u0103zut dup\u0103 mul\u021bi ani \u0219i recupereaz\u0103 pe repede \u00eenainte tot ce-au ratat c\u00e2nd n-au fost \u00eempreun\u0103. A fost uimitor. \u021ai-am adus chiar \u0219i o floare la una din \u00eent\u00e2lnirile noastre. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Acela a fost momentul crucial c\u00e2nd to\u021bi fluturii \u0219i toate florile pe care le-am crezut pierdute \u0219i-au reluat locurile \u00een fiin\u021ba mea. A fost de parc\u0103 nici n-au plecat vreodat\u0103. De fapt, privind \u00een urm\u0103, realizez c\u0103 n-au mai plecat deloc dup\u0103 aceea. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pot spune c\u0103 undeva \u00een acea perioad\u0103 am \u00eenceput s\u0103 suf\u0103r tot mai tare. Lipsa ta a \u00eenceput s\u0103 doar\u0103. Iar colac peste pup\u0103z\u0103 m\u0103 dureau din ce \u00een ce mai tare schimb\u0103rile tale. Ap\u0103reai mereu altfel. Mereu aveai alt\u0103 \u00eenf\u0103\u021bi\u0219are, alt corp, alt nume. Abia reu\u0219eam s\u0103 m\u0103 obi\u0219nuiesc cu un chip nou, c\u0103 trebuia s\u0103-mi iau adio de la el. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Era ca un joc de-a ascunselea. Unul \u00een care te ascundeai mereu \u0219i eu trebuia s\u0103 te g\u0103sesc. Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 cred c\u0103 \u021bie \u00ee\u021bi pl\u0103cea mai mult acest joc dec\u00e2t orice altceva. \u0218i m-am conformat. Am ajuns s\u0103 ne juc\u0103m astfel mul\u021bi ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cen final, dup\u0103 multe c\u0103ut\u0103ri \u0219i g\u0103siri, te-ai oprit. Am fost at\u00e2t de entuziasmat \u00eenc\u00e2t m-am gr\u0103bit s\u0103 te leg, \u00een speran\u021ba c\u0103 n-ai s\u0103 mai fugi s\u0103 te ascunzi. Cu toate astea, spre uimirea mea, ai stat nelegat\u0103. Doar ca s\u0103 m\u0103 faci s\u0103 realizez \u00een final c\u0103 nu pot fi cu tine. Sau cel pu\u021bin a\u0219a am crezut atunci. Am \u00eencercat de dou\u0103 ori (probabil fiindc\u0103 dup\u0103 prima oar\u0103 nu-mi venea s\u0103 cred c\u0103 nu se poate) \u0219i tot de dou\u0103 ori ne-am respins ca polii identici ai unor magne\u021bi. P\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd ne-am respins at\u00e2t de mult, \u00eenc\u00e2t nu doar ne-am \u00eendep\u0103rtat, dar c\u0103utarea care ar fi trebuit s\u0103 urmeze a disp\u0103rut \u0219i ea.\"\"<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Cuvintele magice nu mai puteau s\u0103 rezolve problema. C\u0103utarea \u00ee\u0219i pierduse sensul. Dar eu totu\u0219i am mai \u00eencercat. \u0218i ca prin miracol te-am reg\u0103sit. \u00cens\u0103 spre uimirea \u0219i dezam\u0103girea mea, de fiecare dat\u0103 te reg\u0103seam doar ca s\u0103-mi reaminte\u0219ti c\u0103 e\u0219ti imun\u0103 la cuvintele magice. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0218ti cum face un copil c\u0103ruia i s-a refuzat juc\u0103ria? \u0218i pe m\u0103sur\u0103 ce se \u00eendep\u0103rteaz\u0103 de magazin arat\u0103 neobosit cu degetul \u00eenspre el repet\u00e2nd aproape neauzit dar continuu numele juc\u0103riei \u00een timp ce este tras de acolo de m\u0103mica lui? Ei bine, la fel eu \u00ee\u021bi repetam \u00een g\u00e2nd numele \u0219i cuvintele magice, \u00eens\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 efect.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Poate te \u00eentrebi de ce le mai spun \u201ecuvinte magice\u201d dac\u0103 n-au absolut nici un efect magic? Asupra ta nu mai aveau, e adev\u0103rat. Dar am ajuns s\u0103 realizez c\u0103 au avut asupra mea un efect nea\u0219teptat, chiar miraculos, transformator. Am realizat c\u0103 nu te-am mai pierdut. Ba chiar \u0219i dac\u0103 a\u0219 fi vrut mi-ar fi fost greu s\u0103 te pierd. De ce? Pentru c\u0103 brusc erai pretutindeni. Oriunde \u00eentorceam capul erai \u0219i tu acolo. Oriunde mergeam \u0219tiam c\u0103 m\u0103 vei \u00eenso\u021bi \u0219i tu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cdragostea \u00eencepe doar atunci c\u00e2nd nu mai a\u015ftep\u0163i r\u0103splat\u0103\u201d<\/strong><\/span><\/h5>\nAntoine de Saint-Exupery<\/cite><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Atunci cuvintele magice \u0219i-au rec\u0103p\u0103tat sensul \u0219i statutul, fiindc\u0103 am \u00eencetat s\u0103 le mai folosesc ca s\u0103 te impresionez. Eram at\u00e2t de impresionat eu \u00eensumi de frumuse\u021bea ta nesf\u00e2r\u0219it\u0103, \u00eenc\u00e2t cuvintele nu-\u0219i mai g\u0103seau rostul. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0218i da, \u021bi-am spus c\u0103 nu o s\u0103 te mai impresionez \u0219i am s\u0103 m\u0103 \u021bin de cuv\u00e2nt, dar vreau s-o spun acum lumii \u00eentregi. S\u0103 \u0219tie ori\u0219icine c\u0103 NU vreau s\u0103 te cuceresc. NU vreau s\u0103-\u021bi fac un castel, dac\u0103 tu nu e\u0219ti \u00een el. NU vreau inima ta, dac\u0103 ea bate pentru altul. NU vreau iubirea ta, dac\u0103 mi-o dai din obliga\u021bie. Vreau doar ca tu s\u0103 fi fericit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0218i dac\u0103 vreodat\u0103, c\u00e2ndva, vei g\u0103si timp s\u0103-mi acorzi c\u00e2teva clipe, \u00ee\u021bi voi mul\u021bumi din suflet s\u0103rut\u00e2ndu-\u021bi m\u00e2inile. Nu am preten\u021bia s\u0103-\u021bi smulgi alte clipe pre\u021bioase pentru a-\u021bi putea d\u0103rui \u0219i o floare minunat\u0103 ori pentru a-\u021bi spune din nou cuvintele magice, fiindc\u0103 \u0219ti deja prea bine ce e \u00een inima mea. Doar tu, iubirea mea! Doar tu…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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